How I Discovered My Gay Side

My name is Curtis. This is a true story of how I explored my sexuality. Names and locations changed to protect the people involved.

The big city life always intrigued me. That's why I moved from North Carolina to New York first chance I got. I left my girlfriend and my family behind to work in New York City. I was a photographer and video editor. This is a true story.

I was a 24-year-old black male, 5'9 tall and weigh about 160 pounds. I had grown up in a white neighborhood. I was handsome and had an imposing muscled up physique. All the ladies loved me.

As far as I could tell, I was straight as an arrow before I met Sean. I had just moved into a studio apartment and I was starting to make money working for a modelling agency. I did photoshoots for them and editing work. It was a great job.

I was dating one of the models, Susan, a beautiful blonde slender woman who would later become my wife. She wanted me to be her date at a company fundraiser. I was excited to see many of the people in the industry. It was at a hotel sealed off from paparazzi. Susan introduced me to other professional photographers. I was glad.

We drank wine and dined on exotic cuisines. At some point, Susan told me there were pornographers in the room. Out of curiosity, I asked her to introduce me to one of them. That's how I met Sean.

Sean was a tall huge muscular black guy. I could bet he had a huge cock even without seeing it. He told me he was just a few years into his porn career. He had done mostly camera work. We quickly became friends and exchanged phone numbers that night.

Over the next few weeks, we became friends and soon started hanging out. I started asking more questions. I was considering moonlighting as a pornographer. One of the first weekends we hang out with friends of his, he told me he shot mostly gay porn for a well known porn site. I was still a bit prejudiced and freaked out a bit. His friends who were pornstars and Sean himself helped me get over the gay hate I harboured the more we hang out.

Sean was clearly bisexual. It was too obvious. He was the first black man I came across who was so confident of his sexuality. For a 28-year-old guy, he seemed to live a carefree life of constant sex and partying.

A few months after we met, he was hanging out with a hot curvaceous older woman in her 40's one evening at our hangout spot. At some point, he approached me after Susan had left to ask me if I could follow him to his apartment to double team the woman he was with. Apparently she was a milf porn star who is now retired from the game. I hadn't fucked Susan in a while so I was game.

We went to his small tiny apartment. He had a huge bed with posters of men sucking dick and getting fucked everywhere on the walls. We got undressed. I was surprised how youthful the pornstar was, her breasts and pussy so beautiful. Then I saw Sean's cock. I was equally stunned. He had a big beautiful 9-inch cock, so erect and so long. I was not sure if I was erect because of the pornstar or Sean's cock. It was kinda confusing to me.

The pornstar started going back and forth sucking our cocks. My cock was a modest but huge 8 inches. She was constantly deepthroating both of us. It was an amazement how she managed. Then I started fucking her doggie style as she continued to take Sean's dick deep into her mouth. Soon she was cumming allover my cock as I pistoned it into her pussy. She tasted good, I had to admit. Her pussy was sweet.

We switched positions. I was the one deepthroating her. Sean started fucking her again slowly. I soon realised Sean was actually fucking her right up the ass. I had never had analysis sex before so this was a bit of a shock.

I moved up on the bed and the pornstar climbed on top of me and lowered her pussy onto my dick. Sean mounted her from behind and started fucking her ass. She started yelling all sorts of names and curse words. Soon, she was squirting allover my dick. I started cumming and poured all my seed deep in her pussy. Before I could move, Sean jumped her and moved up to where my face and the pornstar's was. He started cumming allover her face which was directly above mine. By chance, some of his cum was shot directly onto my face or fell from her face to mine. I started freaking out. She noticed and licked it all off and then she kissed me as my dick fell out of her pussy. I left the apartment shortly after.

The following week, I was looking to change into a better apartment. Sean proposed we move in together. He wanted a bigger place but thought we could make good roommates. I was okay with it. During the next month, we both moved into a two bedroom condo in a fancy neighborhood. Our salaries made it possible to pay the rent. It was all cool.

Susan was a little uncomfortable with me moving in with a bisexual guy and disappointed I didn't move in with her. I still liked my independent life.

It wasn't long before Sean started shooting porn videos in our apartment. Sometimes he did videos with gay men fucking, other times he did videos with women involved. I got to see the milf porn star we both fucked once or twice. Every shoot, he changed up our living room to look different. I was kinda okay with it. Sometimes I would walk in and find a naked guy on his knees sucking Sean's mega beautiful cock while he filmed it. I don't know why but I found myself getting hard. Maybe all this gay porn was getting to my head.

I had told Sean to stay away from my bedroom during his porn shoots. He wasn't one to follow rules really. That's why I was furious when I arrived home to find him in my bedroom getting blown by two sexy identical white women in black lingerie and pantyhose. He was filming them in the act. Sometimes he caught bits of me in his film but I really didn't care.

"What the fuck, man! You gone do porn in my bed" I was angry after a long day. "You gone do me like this, Sean"

"I'm sorry, bro. I was taken up. Didn't realise you here." Sean pulled one of the girls off his duck as if forcefully. She had a desperation for sucking dick in her eyes.

"Dude, this is my bedroom. You gotta respect my space, homie." I said putting my phone on the bedside table. "Now get you and your hoes outta here."

"Look, man, just give me like five minutes to cum and-"

"I said get out" I demanded.

"Why don't you join us?" one of the women spoke up. It was the one with the sexy blowjob eyes. "We could make you cum in exchange for using your room. It's a fair deal."

I thought about it feeling my dick slowly rise. "No way. Ain't no way I'm getting down with y'all"

She stood and walked towards me. She immediately started kissing me while fondling my dick from the outside. She could feel my rockhard erection already.

Then she pulled me by the belt and made me sit on the bed next to Sean. I realised Sean was still filming and now he was filming both of us getting sucked by two talented women. She sucked me so well, deepthroating me and then focusing on the head and then shifting to the balls and then lightly massaging the perineum with her small delicate fingers. Within minutes, I was dying to cum. I pulled her off my dick breathing heavily. I didn't want to cum so quickly.

This woman was by far the best head I had ever got up to this point.

"You give the best blowjobs on earth, baby gal." I said very impressed.

"I love big black dicks. I live for dicks like this." She laughed in a sexy tone.

Never had I come across a woman who gave head the way she did. Something was very different. She rose up a bit and we kissed passionately. Her other friend popped Sean's dick out of her mouth and started deepthroating me as I kissed the other. I was caressing her boobs and tagging on her nipples as we kissed. Then I moved one hand southwards into her lower abdomen. I wanted to touch her pussy. I wanted it so badly.

Then I touched something. I couldn't believe it. I looked down to see a big 7-inch dick protruding from between her legs. I was holding the shaft in my hand in shock. It jerked a bit from the contact. I was having sex with a transwoman. Sean stared at me laughing and then moved behind the woman who was blowing me and started fucking her ass.

"Stroke my cock, babe" the sexy eyes woman said. "I've already blown you. You might as well return the favour."

"No, I'm not gay" I said embarrassed as I enjoyed the other woman giving me the blowjob of a lifetime. "I'm not touching or sucking another dick"

" Nobody will know and besides you are hard as hell. You're enjoying this. Just like I enjoyed sucking your hard cock. We both know you like this. This is not gay. It's just four people having fun. To be gay, you not only have to desire cock in your mouth and ass but you have to be able to fall in love with your lover. You're just a straight guy who likes blowjobs." She kissed me again and I was lost in sexual nirvana.

"No I ain't blowing you." I said as I stroked her cock slowly. This wasn't happening.

As if she didn't hear what I said, she climbed onto the bed and stood wiggling her cock in my face. I couldn't be any more aroused than I was at this point.

She put the tip near my mouth and made a hand motion to suck it. I hesitated and resisted.

She said, "C'mon sweetie, you need my cock and my cockjuice. Open up that mouth."

She forced me to open up my jaw and pushed her dick in. I choked on it and found myself grazing it with my teeth. What an amateur I was!!

"Easy on the teeth, cockslut. Easy on the teeth." She whispered breathing hard. "Suck that nice and good. Your mouth is so hot."

I was sucking around the head, moving my tongue allover the dick in circular motions. I was sucking dick the way I would want to be sucked. I was incredibly turned on. Did this mean I was gay?

I started taking more dick down my throat slowly. Until I gagged a bit about halfway down the shaft. I pulled off. I could see the trail of saliva allover her hard dick.

"Suck me please." she begged in a feminine voice. "I know you love my dick. You crave it like a little gay slut. From now on, you'll desire and worship cock until you die. We both know your girlfriend can't give you this in your mouth. Her pussy will never be enough for you."

I started aggressively sucking the cock. Huge drools of saliva dropped from my mouth down my chin. Below, the second woman sucked me off as she got fucked.

I deepthroated the whole dick until I could feel the skin on his balls. I stayed there for a while and pulled off coughing from all the choking. She grabbed my head and said, "Open your mouth. I'm going to fuck your sexy mouth. I'm almost there." She grabbed my head and started fucking my mouth vigorously. She picked up speed. Moving back and forth in a blur. I was close too.

She screamed and screeched closing her eyes yelling, "I'm cumming."

"Cum on his face." The woman sucking me off yelled.

She pulled out leaving me wanting more of her dick. She stroked it once or twice and immediately huge spurts of cum erupted onto my face in quick succession. One went directly into my mouth and another shot straight into my left eye. Another on both cheeks. All the while, she stroked her dick moaning in the sexiest tones I've ever heard.

After spilling all the cum, she pushed her dick back into my mouth. I sucked all the cum off it and released it with a pop sound. She almost went crazy with lust. She put her hand on my cheek and said, "You're a pro at this considering you made me cum in less than 10." She leaned closer and we kissed.

I broke the kiss when I felt a finger push into my ass abruptly. I looked down just before I started cumming.

"What the hell" I exclaimed. Sean was between my legs sucking my cock as he looked at me with lustful eyes.

Immediately, I started cumming. I poured all the cum in his mouth. He swallowed all of it while holding onto my dick like it was dear life. My dick jerked and twitched as he swallowed all the cum. Then continued sucking it until it started to soften. The two ladies watched while one was recording the whole moment on camera.

From that moment on, I knew I was in love with sucking dick.

In the weeks that followed, I didn't tell Susan I had cum with Sean sucking my dick. I still loved her but I wanted to explore my sexuality. I knew she would break up with me if she found out hence why I never told her.

Sean and I didn't do any oral stuff after that. I wasn't mentally ready to have sex with him after that night. I was scared with the way I came, it freaked me out. I thought if I had more orgasms, I would be gay.

One morning before I rushed to work, Sean approached me in the kitchen.

"Hey man" he said, "I need you to sign some papers."

"For what?" I replied sipping my coffee while scrolling through social media on my phone.

"They will legally allow us to put up the video we made."

My mind suddenly rushed to that evening. I couldn't forget Sean's mouth on my dick. "Look, Sean, I don't wanna be a pornstar, okay? I don't want no part in your porn videos." I was very clear.

He stood next to me with his morning erection clearly visible. "Curtis, you have to understand that was the most original real porn video I ever shot. The people at the studio couldn't believe what they were seeing. It could sell like hot cake. I will give you half the profits. You just have to sign."

"I said no" I stood up and walked away.

He pulled my hand back and suddenly we were face to face. "I know you liked what we did that day. You were cumming harder than you do while fucking your girlfriend."

"Let go of me." I pulled away and went out the room.

Later that day, I came back home exhausted and horny. I made a booty call to Susan as I sat with Sean watching a TV show. Susan wasn't interested. She had work to do that day.

I felt so frustrated. For some reason, our relationship wasn't going to plan.

After the TV show got done, Sean went to his bedroom and then came back with a pillow.

"Hey Curtis," he said, "I know you are tired and horny. I'm going to help you with that."

"You wanna blow me?" I said in disbelief. This wasn't happening. For some reason, I was getting hard just at the thought of his mouth on my dick.

"If you don't want me to do it, you have to push me off your dick." With those words, Sean put the pillow between my legs. I was sitting with legs open on the couch, hands to the side of the couch.

Sean knelt down between my legs, looking me in the eye. This felt like the most erotic thing I've ever done. He slowly pulled down my pants. My dick was aching to be freed. Then he touched it slowly through my boxers. I let out a tiny moan.

He held it in his hand slowly jerking it. His other hand caressing my balls. He licked my dick from the base up to the head. My whole body jerked in arousal. I was dying to have his mouth worshipping my dick.

He glanced at me with the sexiest eyes on the planet, then repeated the sudden tongue contact from my base to the head where he lingered a little too long. All this teasing would make me cum quicker.

"Your dick so hard right now," he said. "I bet you want me to suck it."

"Yeah please. Suck it please." I begged.

He kissed my dick in different places allover the shaft. "You like your dick getting sucked by another man, don't you?"

"Yes I do" I answered.

"Your silly girlfriend can never give you head the way I do. She can't even deepthroat you like this." Suddenly he swallowed my dick whole until I could feel his nose on my skin and he pulled off. I gasped.

"You like it, don't you?" he sucked my head and suctioned it in his mouth while moving his tongue allover it. I was so aroused.

"I like the way your mouth feels. Please make me cum." I begged again.

He moved up closer and really started sucking my dick. He alternated between deepthroat and suctioning the head. I was in ecstatic bliss. He sucked me off like for 10 minutes without breaking or gagging or saying a word. Sean clearly had been doing this for a while. He knew where and how to apply pressure.

He massaged my balls as his head bobbed up and down. Then he started rubbing my perineum. I knew I was close.

He pushed two fingers up my ass and started moving them around. He touched something sensitive and that was it for me.

I felt the sperm moving quickly out of my dick.

"I'm cumming," I screamed in agony.

Sean swallowed the first shot, then pulled off and the rest of the shots smashed into his face at breakneck speed. One hand on my dick jerking, the other fingering my ass. I twisted and moved allover the sofa until the high was over.

Sean smiled at me and went down on my dick one more time. He sucked it and deepthroated it again removing all the cum on it. Then pulled off leaving a trail of saliva. If he had continued again for a little longer, I'd be hard again. Thank god he stopped there.

His face was coated with my cum. He stood and sat in my lap, both legs to my side, hands around my neck. We kissed for what felt like an eternity. I could feel his hard rod poking my stomach. I felt like it was my obligation to repay his favour.

Sean stood up as if he didn't expect anything from me. He was turning to move away. I grabbed him by the belt. Then I pulled his pants down as I knelt infront of him. His huge dick popped out hitting me in the face. I smiled seductively and kissed it. This was a huge one and I didn't know how I was going to handle it. But I had to swallow it somehow. Was I just talking myself into sucking him?

My cocksucking skills were questionable. I was a little nervous.

Sean was slowly jerking his cock and gently hitting it on my face. "C'mon little straight cocksucker. Open that mouth wide."

I opened my mouth like he asked. I was getting a kick out of being submissive to him. He pushed his dick into my mouth slowly and pulled out.

He said, "Stroke your cock as you suck me off"

I did as he said.

He pushed his dick back into my mouth. I moved my hands to touch but he quickly hit them away saying, "No hands. Not now."

I concentrated on jerking off my dick.

He started pushing his dick into my mouth slowly and gaining a rhythm. I realised he was helping me get used to sucking him without gagging.

He started rapidly increasing his speed and going deeper into my throat. Suddenly my dick was so hard from all the dick sucking. I had to admit to myself I was liking this.

He pushed his whole dick into my throat. I gagged and choked and coughed on it. My eyes turned red. His dick was definitely bigger than mine. Almost impossible for a first timer like me to swallow whole.

He pulled out and gave me a moment to breathe. Then he held my head in both hands and started fucking my mouth like the best pussy in town. This guy was an insatiable animal.

He spoke through soft moans of pleasure. "Please finger fuck my ass. Please."

I obliged wilfully. I put two fingers at his anal hole and slowly pushed in. It was tight at first and then I found myself moving in and out.

"Just keep them fingers in but kinda move them around in circles" Sean instructed.

I moved my fingers as instructed. He kept moving his legs in a bizarre manner clearly getting excited by my probing of his ass. Meanwhile I was going down on his dick at a faster pace. His whole dick was shiny wet with my saliva.

"I'm cumming." He moaned gazing into my eyes. "Oh my fucking god, I'm so close. Fuck, you so good at this for an amateur."

Then he erupted shooting his cum into my mouth. "Oh fuck, swallow that juice, baby. Swallow that load. Your so fucking sexy. I love fucking your mouth."

He shot for about 10 seconds straight. I captured every drop of cum in my mouth and immediately gulped it into my stomach. Afterwards, I felt like I had drunk a cup of water after an intense workout.