Exploring My Sexuality

It started with a phone call from my best friend. "What are you doing? Want to come over?"

"I guess. Haven't anything else to do. What's up?"

"A friend loaned me a new DVD. He says it's really good."

"New movie?"

"Porn, but I don't know what it's about. It's a copy and there's no label. Should be fun. Come on over."

I walked the two blocks to his house. Jeff and I were classmates from clear back in grade school. Now high school was over, we had graduated. Neither of us had jobs yet and hadn't really looked. Seemed too early for that.

"I hope this is as good as the last one he gave me. A friend of his works at an adult store. He brings home rental DVD's and makes copies. That's where this one came from."

The DVD played.

"Uh, I think this might be a gay porn video," I stuttered, as the title and intro came on.

"Yeah."

"Your friend said this was a good one, right?"

"That's what he said."

"Do you really want to watch this?"

"Well, I don't have any others. Yeah, let's watch for just a minute."

Two minutes later the two male performers were playing with each other's cocks.

"You ever notice all the guys' cocks in these videos are really big? Where do they find them?"

"I read somewhere that porn actors are usually fairly small in stature. That their cocks are slender. And that makes them seem longer. At least that's what I heard."

"I guess. They do look pretty big."

"I don't know, mine's about the same."

"In your dreams!"

"No, I really mean it."

"Bullshit."

Our banter continued as we watched one actor suck off the other.

"He seems to like doing it."

"Yeah, that's why they call them actors. But I suppose it must feel good. Have you ever had a blowjob? You know, does your girlfriend do it?"

"No. The farthest I've ever gotten on a date is to feel up that girl in our class, Alice. Once she let me feel under her bra. I liked that and would have done more. She rubbed my crotch and I got hard. As soon as it did she quit and said we had to stop."

"That's more than me. I jack off all the time."

"You do? I do too but didn't know if that was abnormal or what."

"Yeah, I usually do it in my bedroom but have to be careful not to get lotion on my sheets. Don't want my mom to ask questions. Hey, looks like you like the movie."

My shorts were tented with a sizeable hard-on.

"Well, what do you expect. We talk about jacking off while we watch some stud suck another guy. You've got one too."

"Yeah, the video is turning me on." He unzipped and pulled out his cock. "There, that feels better." I watched with interest as he fondled it.

"You weren't kidding, Jeff. You do have a big one. Oh, you're not circumcised. All the guys I have seen in the gym showers are."

"I know. Years ago I asked dad and he said some families don't do it. He showed me his and it also was uncut. I've gotten used to it being this way. What about you?"

I pulled down my pants and my hard cock sprung out. "I'm circumcised."

"Nice cock. About the same size as mine. I notice other guys in the showers, some have just little stubs, others hang down. I think we are bigger than most."

The porn movie continued. The guy's cock squirted, some of the cum dribbling out of the guy's mouth.

"God, that's hot. I wish I had some girl wrapped around my cock," Jeff remarked.

"I know what you mean. I haven't found that girl yet." I eyed his rock-hard cock. "The way you talked I thought maybe you had some puny cock. Yeah, you are the same size as me." I reached over and placed my hand on his shaft and rubbed.

"Oh, god, you shouldn't do that. But it feels so good." He turned towards me to give me easier access to his cock, simultaneously taking my cock in hand. I had plenty of experience jacking myself off but it was exciting to touch Jeff.

The porn actor had moved on to butt-fucking the other guy.

"Let me get some lotion that I use when I jack off. Here, that will make your cock feel better."

"Yeah, that's pretty slippery stuff. Feels good."

We continued to jack off each other. It was fun to play with his cock. I watched his foreskin move back and forth as I slid my hand up and down. Using my other hand, I fondled his balls.

"Careful! Don't squeeze. But don't stop either."

Jeff stopped rubbing my cock as he focused on his approaching climax. Drops of a clear liquid oozed out of his cock. I knew that meant he was getting close. I sped up my stroking.

"Wahoo. I'm going to come. Oh, shit. Here it comes." I missed his first burst but caught the next in my hand. I rubbed his cum up and down his cock.

"Wow, Larry, that was great. You did it just right."

"Well, I just did what I like to do to myself. Glad it felt good. Now how about doing me?" Jeff resumed playing with my cock. I shot my wad several minutes later. Neither of us said anything for a minute.

"Wow, that's so much sexier than when I jerk off. We could have been doing this for years!"

"Yeah, lots of wasted time and lotion."

"Have you ever done that before? With another guy, I mean."

"No, of course not."

"Me neither. It was fun."

"Yeah, but we sure can't tell anyone."

"You're right about that."

"How long before your mom gets home?"

"Oh, at least two more hours."

"Good, let's continue to watch the movie and maybe we can do it again." Which we did.

*****

"You coming over? Mom just left for work. I still have the DVD."

I hurried to his house, two blocks away. "I want to watch that part again where they suck each other. Do you think we could do that?" I asked.

"Sure, why not. It looks like fun. How bad do you think cum tastes? I heard guys say that most girls won't swallow."

"I tasted mine. It was a little salty and warm, but not awful."

"Really? You actually ate your cum?"

"Yeah, some times when I jack off I squirt into the palm of my hand and then lick it."

"God, Larry, I've never done that."

"I like to try different things."

"Like what else?"

"Well, I like to stick things into my ass. I like how it feels."

"Damn, guy, you're something else! Until yesterday I just played with myself."

"I'll taste your cum if you like," I offered.

"You mean suck my cock?"

"Yeah. Want me to?"

"Yeah, sure." He stripped and sat in the chair, legs spread, cock sticking up. I scooted between his legs.

"Wait a minute. Let me move to the chair by the TV. Then you can try to mimic the guy in the video."

I grasped his hard cock and brought it closer. The foreskin had retracted, exposing his cock head. A bead of clear liquid oozed from his piss-hole. Well, here goes, I thought. I tentatively touched the head with the tip of my tongue, lapping up the liquid. Hum, no taste, I decided. Jeff watched intently as I licked the head like an ice cream cone, rolling my tongue around.

"Oh, man. That feels so good."

Feeling bolder, I took him partway into my mouth and then back out. Pursing my lips, I fucked his cock head.

"Damn, Larry, that feels soooo good!"

He wanted to shove deeper but I had my hand on his cock so just the head was entering. I wondered if a girl's pussy would feel as good as my lips.

Emulating the guy in the video, I gradually took him deeper until it nudged my throat. I bobbed my head, now sucking about three inches. The actor's cock was now disappearing into the guy's mouth. Jeff pushed deeper but I gagged and pulled off his cock.

"I guess I'm not ready to try that. As soon as your cock touched the back of my throat I gagged. I'll try again." I couldn't do it.

"Don't try anymore, just take what you can," Jeff said. "You are doing a great job."

"Watch out, I'm going to come," he warned a couple of minutes later. "Here it comes! Oh, man." His cock jumped and popped out of my mouth, cum shooting onto my face. As he pulled away two more squirts landed on my neck.

He laughed. "Sorry about that. Kind of messy that way. Next time I'll try to aim for your mouth."

I wiped my face and we exchanged positions. The DVD was backed up so Jeff could follow along plus he now had some first-hand experience. He licked and sucked. My cock bumped the back of his throat, each time nearly causing him to gag.

"Damn, guy, I really want to take you deeper," he said as he resumed sucking. And then the head slipped deeper. He quickly backed it out.

"Hot damn, Jeff, I felt it go into your throat. How did you do that? How did you keep from gagging?"

Taking me out of his mouth, he explained "I wanted to gag but finally was able to hold it back. I'm going to do it some more."

The next time my cock slid a bit deeper and he didn't gag! A few more strokes and his mouth was nestled in my crotch. Jeff had it all in! That lasted about two seconds before he choked.

Jeff finished me off, sucking just the head and three or so inches.

"Watch out. I'm coming!" I shoved it deep and erupted directly into his throat. He gagged and the remaining spurts flew everywhere.

During the next two weeks we sucked each other many times. Jeff admitted that he knew the DVD was gay and was hoping we would do things together. He borrowed two others and we used them as educational guides. We felt rather proud of our growing proficiency.

*****

"How's your love life?" my sister Janice asked.

"What?" I nearly choked on the cookie I was eating.

"I said, how's your love life?"

"Uh, why do you ask?"

"You know my friend, Lisa. Her sister thinks you're a stud. If you ask her I think she'll go out with you."

"I suppose. What's she looks like?"

"Lisa's good looking, don't you think? Her sister is a year younger, just as good looking. She saw you at that school rally. I guess you don't remember. What she sees in you, I have no idea."

"Must be my bubbling personality. Or all the money I've got."

"Yeah, in your dreams. You still a virgin? Lisa said her sister is the wild one. You might have a really good time. If you're interested don't wait too long to call her."

I called. And then Jeff called.

"Sorry, Jeff, I'm busy Saturday."

"What you got going? Hot date?"

"As a matter of fact, yes. My sister set me up with the sister of her best friend. Supposed to be good looking. More importantly, she thinks I'm a stud."

"Kind of branching out, aren't you? I thought it was just you and me. Better not tell her you suck cock."

"Yeah, that's for sure. It's just a date. Doesn't change anything with us. I'll see you Monday and we'll do the usual. Besides, I don't have high expectations for this date."

I was mistaken and had a very good time. Amy was fun and more than cute. She was really good looking. We shared a surprisingly intense kiss when I took her home. We planned to get together again in a couple of days.

My time the next two weeks was split between Jeff and Amy. Then on Friday I had my first pussy.

"Larry, you are the nicest guy I have met in a long time. Most guys try to get me into bed by the second date. I know you like me and appreciate your restraint. But now I'm the horny one. Can we get a motel room? I want to fuck you."

I was flabbergasted. Amy had seemed so reserved and now this sudden invitation. Then I remembered that she was "the wild one."

"Well, are you interested?"

"Of course I'm interested, just surprised."

"I'm sorry to shock you. I absolutely love sex but I hate guys who think a dinner or movie will buy me."

Nude, her body was every bit as sexy as I imagined. Slender, B-cup boobs. Even a bare pussy. She paraded around the room.

"What do you think? Am I fuckable? Hurry up, I want to see your cock.

"God, Larry, where have you been hiding that hose? That's about the biggest cock I've ever seen. Oh, we are going to have so much fun."

"Amy, I need to confess. This is a first for me."

"You mean you're a virgin?"

"Yes. Yours is the first pussy I've ever seen. I'm embarrassed to ask but would you show me what you like? I want to make you feel good."

Amy slipped between my legs and sucked my cock. That part was familiar. I thought Jeff was good but Amy was wonderful. She made love to my cock. All too soon I shot cum into her mouth.

"Very tasty, Larry. And a big load. Now, if you want to be a good lover you have to eat pussy. I'll show you. Want to give it a try?"

I didn't hesitate a minute and was on my knees between her spread legs. I was up-close and personal to a pussy for the first time.

"I want you to put the tip of your tongue between my lips. Right here," as she rubbed her finger up and down her slit. "Lick up and down. Here, I'll spread my lips so you can get in deeper."

I stuck out my tongue and tentatively touched her pussy. Feeling a bit bolder I dipped deeper between the lips. I wiggled my tongue up and down as she guided my head.

"Doing good, Larry. Go slower. Enjoy my taste. Now go a bit higher. Yes, there. That's my clitoris. Easy, just flick your tongue over it. Now back down. This time when your tongue reaches my hole, push the tip in."

She continued with her step by step instructions.

"Baby, you are doing so good. I can't believe this is your first pussy. Keep going."

The instructions ended and were replaced by murmurs and sighs. Another minute and she pulled my head into her crotch, mashing my tongue and face into her pussy. I tasted a spurt of new juices as she cried out. She held me until I needed to pull away to breathe.

"Oh, baby, that was soooo good. That's the best pussy eating I've ever had. Absolutely the best. How long before you can get it up again?" she asked as she fondled my cock.

"Not long the way you are playing with it. Ten minutes more, maybe."

"My pussy is dripping with anticipation of this big cock stretching me out. I'm sure glad we got together." Me too, I thought.

My cock was finally on the rise. Another couple of minutes of fondling and it was almost fully hard.

"OK, big boy. Put the head right here between my pussy lips. Don't push. Now rub it up and down my slit. Here, let me show you," as she took my cock and rubbed the head up and down.

"See how slippery it's getting. My pussy is leaking fluid. And your cock is leaking pre-cum. That's nature's way of lubrication. A good lover doesn't hurry. If you just shove your cock into a girl's pussy, it won't feel nearly as good for either of you.

"OK, now let's get the head into my hole." She pulled my cock and the head disappeared between her lips. "Now we go back out, like this."

"Now let's go deeper. Push in a couple of inches. Feel good? You are already stretching me. Now another inch. If I were a virgin, you would be hitting my hymen. You don't have to worry with me," she added with a laugh.

"Oh," she murmured as she drew in a breath. "You are really big. Keep going, but slowly. Let me get used to you."

Her pussy was like a snug, velvet glove around my cock. With encouragement I started thrusting. This was exciting. I momentarily wondered what Jeff would think if he could me right now.

I started up a rhythm of thrusting.

"Too fast, Larry. Take it easy and enjoy the feel of my pussy."

I slowed down, making long slow thrusts. God, her pussy felt good. It gripped the entire length of my cock, much better than Jeff or my hand. And so slippery!

"Doing good. Nice and slow. Make it last. Now stick your left hand under me and feel my pussy. Hold your hand so you can guide your cock into my hole. Yes, like that. OK, now if you pull out, your cock will be lined up with my hole. Try it."

I pulled out of her pussy and then gently pushed back. My hand pushed the head into her pussy. This was great! I started long thrusts.

Several minutes later I shoved deep and came.

"Oh, I can feel you. Damn you. Oh. Oh, Larry. Oh..."

We were both exhausted by our fucking. Finally, I managed to talk.

"This has been the most exciting day of my life. Thank you!"

"The pleasure was all mine. And I really mean that! Even without experience you made me come twice. Most guys can't. Some totally strike out. Can we get together again? Soon?"

Soon was three days hence. That left two days for Jeff and me.

"Well, did you like your first pussy?"

"Amy is a terrific girl. We had fun."

"She sounds like a 'nice personality' girl."

"Think what you will, but she is very good looking in spite of her 'nice personality'. I think you're jealous."

"Not really, just so long as we keep getting together. What did you do?"

"She sucked my cock. Did it about the same as we do." I didn't say she was better.

"Then she taught me how to eat pussy. That was fun, and I made her come. She played with my cock and got it hard again. And then we fucked. She said my cock was the biggest she had ever had."

"Probably tells every guy that."

"Anyway, I liked everything we did. I particularly liked fucking her pussy."

"Better than my blowjob?"

"Yeah. And I'm sure better than the blowjob I give you."

"I think we need to try something new. I've been thinking. Pussy fucking and ass fucking should be similar. How about if you fuck me in the ass? Then you can decide which you like better."

I suspected there was more to this. Jeff was jealous.

"That could be fun. But do you think you could take my cock? You've never been ass fucked and my cock is big."

"I want to give it a try. I bought a dildo that's a little smaller than your cock. I figure if you can get it in and get me loosened up, your cock would fit. Let's give it a try."

Jeff brought out the dildo and lubrication. He lay on his tummy, legs spread, his anus exposed. I spread lube on the dildo and put the tip to his anus. I gently pushed but the tip barely penetrated.

"I don't think it's going to fit. I can't even get the tip in."

"Push harder. Keep pressing."

His anus opened up and most of the tip entered. I continued to stroke the dildo, each time it went in a little more. A minute later the first two inches were inside.

"Hold up, Larry. Don't go any deeper. That might be it. It's too big."

I twisted and stroked the dildo and felt his anus open up a bit more. I pushed hard and most of the dildo penetrated.

"Oh, god. You're tearing me up with that thing. Take it out, please."

"Nope, you said you wanted me to fuck you. How you going to do that if you can't take this dildo."

I pulled out and then pushed slowly in to the hilt. Jeff finally settled down as I gently worked the dildo. His ass gradually accommodated the intrusion.

"You ready for my cock?"

"No, Larry. I want to but it will hurt too much. Keep fucking me with the dildo. Maybe next time we can do it."

The next night I took his ass. He said he was still sore but the dildo slid in easier. Then, without asking, I pulled the dildo out and quickly inserted my cock head. He drew in a breath as I gently penetrated him. I ignored his protestations and pushed deeper. His ass was definitely tighter than Amy's pussy. It was so tight it almost hurt. But I persevered and shot cum deep into his bowels. As I pulled out his anus was gapped open and a glob of cum dribbled out.

"God, Jeff, I hope I didn't wreck your ass, it looks all stretched out."

"I hope not too. It hurts. Did you get it in all the way?"

"Every inch."

"Give me a minute. Then will you suck me?"

That was fine with me. Even though his cock was about the same size as mine I didn't want it in my ass. He didn't ask.

The next evening, I had another date with Amy. We ate lunch at a little Italian bistro and spent two hours in bed.

*****

Over the next several weeks a routine was established. Jeff and I played some days and Amy and I on other days.

"Larry, are you dating another girl?"

"Why do you ask?"

"You seem to be working from some sort of schedule. Me on certain days. Something or someone else on certain other days. I really like you and need to know if I have competition."